All the drafts are making me crazy

I know there’s an underlying story that I’m trying to write here.  I want to write the middle of that story, but I don’t know what to write.  So I started it, but am now writing something else instead.  I have a few drafts on here.  Some things that I’ve started, but didn’t quite like, or didn’t quite know how to finish.  So I saved them as drafts, and there they remain; unfinished.  I want to finish them, but I know that I’m not ready to finish them now.  When I get the urge to write them, then I know I will be ready.  Just like I got the urge to write my last published blog, or this one.  I know that I said I wanted to publish new stuff every week, but that just added pressure.  It made this seem like a chore.  I f’cking hate chores.  I don’t like anyone to tell me what to do.  I even hate it when I tell me what to do.  I added an SEO plugin to my website.  It tells me how to improve readability, and tells me to add focus keyphrases, and other bullsh’t.  I even hate that thing telling me what to do.  It’s like when you’re at the store and you swipe your debit card.  Then the person behind the counter thinks you don’t know how to do it.  They tell you “Press ok”, and “put in your pin number” and it drives me crazy.  Almost as crazy as when someone says “pin number”  Personal Identification Number is what PIN stands for you f’cking dipsh’t……

All the drafts are making me crazy