I come off as a creep. I know I do. Or maybe it’s all in my mind. I like that song. It’s one of my favorite songs, but it makes me cry. Every time. I know that I come off as a creep. I don’t mean to. I just do. If I could not, I would not. I feel like that’s just me though. It’s because I have a hard time talking to people. Whether you’re male, female, a dog, I don’t care. I can’t talk to new people. I’ve been betrayed by people, people that I’ve let in as close friends. So I have a hard time talking to new people. I have a hard time opening up to anyone that I don’t know. I keep things short, I keep things down to only what needs to be said. All the while though, I’m curious. I have ADHD. So I’m constantly looking around; constantly watching everything that happens around me. I appear like a weirdo, someone that just watches everyone and never talks to them.
I used to believe in predestination. I used to believe in fate. I thought that there was one person, a special person, who was meant to be with me. no matter what. Long story short, I had a lot of ‘signs’ I thought I had found this person. And when things should have worked out. When things should have been there. Nothing happened. My heart was broken, and I fell into a downward spiral. I realize now, as I have said before, that predestination cannot exist. Predestination and free will are mutually exclusive. If predestination exists, then your path is chosen for you. There is no such thing as Free Will if your path is chosen for you. So the two cannot coexist. This is the root cause of why so many people blame God for bad things happening. They rejoice that God gave them the ability to choose their own path, but when someone else chooses a path that conflicts with their choices, suddenly God is at fault. Well, he’s not.. Sorry, f’ck you. God gave us the greatest gift of all. He gave us the ability to do whatever the f’ck we want. I’m sure he would like for us to always do good. To always live our lives for him, and do good deeds in his name. However, we all have our own choices. Predestination cannot exist. That’s why there is no ‘one’. there is no ‘meant to be’ cause he or she can make whatever choice they want. And that choice may, or may not include you. I’m not saying give up on your dreams. I’m saying that your dreams can come true. But only if you make them. You have to work for them. you cannot just sit by and pray, and hope, that those dreams come true without you ever doing anything to make it happen. If you want something, you have to go for it.
I don’t think people think your a creep. But maybe that is cause I am a creep to..
“Well, he’s not.. Sorry, f’ck you.” LMAO 🙂
I guess the key takeaway here is that in life, there are no guarantees.